What defines success?
Knowledge? Beauty? Intelligence? Education? Money? Job? Fitness? Worldliness? Marital Status? College Degrees?
Is it the size of my paycheck? Or maybe the size of my jeans? Is it the number of places I’ve been? Or the number of friends I have on facebook?
I don’t know!
For many people it is so easy to follow the path set by society. High school –> College –> Entry Level Job –> Graduate School –> Better Job –> Marriage –> Promotion –> Children etc.
There is nothing wrong with this path. It’s very nice. It’s very linear. But I’m not so sure that it is for me!
I feel old sometimes. I know I’m not, but I see friends back home in the middle of this type of path and I question my own choices. Am I wasting my time?
My problem has always been that I have too many interests. I always want to learn more, discover something new. That is difficult when it comes to choosing a career.
I like teaching English a lot. It is a great, flexible, way of life right now. But I don’t love it. I don’t want to do it forever. It won’t fulfill me.
I love to cook. I kind of wish I’d went to the CIA for college. But I didn’t, and I’m not about to spend four more years and countless dollars on another Bachelor’s Degree. I want to be top chef but I don’t want to spend 10 years in a hot kitchen first…
I’m starting to really enjoy technology. Starting a blog has been a great experience and I’ve already learned so much. Maybe I could pursue this interest into something profitable? Professional bloggers do exist although as I understand it is not an easy path! Not to mention I feel so far behind… the more I learn the more I realize I need to learn. PHP? SEO? HTML? SELF HOSTING? When did I fall so far behind?
What do you do?
If someone asked me this today I’m not sure I would know how to respond. Let’s try:
“Well, I live in Spain with my Spanish husband. I’m waiting for my residency card so in the meantime I’m teaching private English classes to make ends meet. I also give cooking lessons and I’m trying to improve my personal blog so that some day it might be profitable. And you?”
How does that sound?
For Now, Optimism Wins
I may eventually want to join the rat race. I honestly think that with the right job it can’t be so bad and that I might, in fact, enjoy it! But having my own business is much more enticing… So for now I’ll start small: English lessons, Cooking Classes, and My Blog.
I’ve decided to move my blog over to a self hosted service. It is not nearly as easy and intuitive as I thought it would be, but I find that it’s much more flexible in design and potential.
Please update your bookmarks, blogroll, and subscriptions– I would really appreciate it! And if you wouldn’t mind leaving a comment or two about the overall look etc. (still in progress but presentable) I’d appreciate it even more.
Thank you all so much for reading and commenting. Enjoy the rest of your weekends and please tell me– optimistic or unrealistic?